November '11
This is probably the most eventful month of my entire life. Sorry for the lack of updates, because I don't quite know how to give you bits and pieces of my life. Sorry for the vague update even when I update (which is now) because there's so many things that are too personal to reveal.
If we both knew that it'll end up this ugly, we both would have stayed out of it all. But we never knew. So we brought all this physical and emotional pain upon ourselves. Although I know I lied, probably as much as you did too, I still think I have a right to say that I don't deserve all the hurt you gave to me. All the pain you caused me. I am not going to say that I don't deserve you, but we don't deserve each other. Haha, perhaps we were never meant to be anyway.
Looking back on the days where we thought eternity was an effortless step away, I really feel like it is just a simple step away even till now, the sweetness and happiness of the past leaves a bitter taste and ugly stain. To bad eternity outlived 'us'. We will never be possible again, I know that clearly.
So after a full month of dragging, it is finally and officially over, I hereby declare myself completely and utterly free of disgusting emotionally draining and sticky relationships. Now couples genuinely disgusts me, especially those freshly in love. I think this is pure jealousy and it is totally unfair to fresh couples in love, but please fuck off from my sight till time washes away all my disgust, thanks very much. If not I'll literally suck out all your happiness with a motherfucking straw.
This post is prolly a major understatement of what had happened in the past month as I didn't really tell you anything much, but this month is a darkest chapter so far. And it's time to close this chapter. With that, to the better future.